Source: Sunnipath.comQ: The issue is that I cry a lot in the evening, especially lying in my bed and at Isha time, when I think about my sins and about my grave and my reckoning with Allah. I get very depressed and feel that the only place for me is Hell, the Fire.A:1 . Crying: It is of the great works of the heart to weep in reverence, fear, longing, and love for Allah.
The Messenger of Allah (Allah bless him and give him peace) said, “There are two eyes that the Fire will not touch: eyes that wept in fear of Allah, and eyes that stayed up guarding in the way of Allah.” [Tirmidhi]
And he also mentioned (peace and blessings be upon him) seven people whom Allah will shade in His shade, on a Day when there is no other shade, and included among them, “...and a person who remembered Allah when alone until their eyes flowed with tears.” [Bukhari and Muslim]
2. We don’t just fear Allah: we have love, longing, hope, and joy in Him too…
Allah has blessed us with the straight and upright path of Islam, which is essentially balanced and moderate in its outlook. Part of this balance is that a Muslim does not only fear Allah: we also have great hope in Allah, for Allah is the Merciful, Compassionate, and Loving.
His Beloved Messenger (peace and blessings be upon him) told us that when Allah ordained creation, He wrote on His Throne, “Verily, My Mercy outstrips my Wrath.” [Bukhari and Muslim]
Allah tells us in the Qur’an, Al Baqara:186 : “And when My servants question You concerning Me, then surely I am near. I answer the prayer of the suppliant when they cry unto Me. So let them hear My call and let them trust in Me, in order that they may be led aright.”
And He tells us the way, Al Baqara:152-153 : “Therefore remember Me, I will remember you. Give thanks to Me, and reject Me not. O you who believe! Seek help in steadfastness and prayer. Lo! Allah is with the steadfast.”
We all have shortcomings. Allah has called us to turn to Him, Al Baqara:222 : “Truly Allah loves those who turn unto Him, and loves those who purify themselves.”
The way to this is repentance, and turning towards Allah in obedience and love. For every step you take towards Allah, Allah draws closer to you beyond imagination.
The Messenger of Allah (Allah bless him and give him peace) said that Allah Most High said, “I am as My servants think of Me, and I am with them when they make remembrance of Me. So if they remember Me to themselves, I remember them to Myself. And if they remember me in a gathering, I remember them in a gathering better than theirs. If they draw closer to Me by a handspan, I draw closer to them by an arm’s length. And if they draw closer to Me by an arm’s length, I draw closer to them by two arm’s lengths. If they come walking to Me, I hasted to them.” [Bukhari and Muslim]
The scholars explain that the servant’s drawing close is by seeking to follow the Beloved Messenger of Allah (peace and blessings be upon him) by performing good works, obligatory and voluntary, and seeking high inward states (such as reverence, love, and thankfulness), and Allah’s drawing close is through giving reward, spiritual illumination, and enveloping them in His Mercy and Love.
Thus, when we realize our shortcomings, we weep over them, repent to Allah, but move forward, for our reliance and hope is not in our works but in the Mercy and Concern of Allah for us. A Muslim is thus an optimist, because while recognizing our shortcomings, faults, and errors, we also realize that Allah gives: our duty is simply to ask and then take the right means.
And Allah has told us, Al Ankabut:69 : “As for those who strive in Us, We surely guide them to Our paths, and lo! Allah is with the good.”
And Allah alone gives success.
Wassalam.Faraz Rabbani.