Having the name "Robin / Abu" still on my msn list doesn't feel weird. When I see it now, I still instinctively think to myself, 'Oh dear. I hope he doesn't come online now cos I'm kinda busy'.

I know this is a sentimental entry appearing on my public blog. I don't care. I need to yell it out ... silently.

Since it is public, I should probably clarify some things. Robin is a second cousin, and in the opinion of many of my relatives, there couldn't be a better son. As old as he was, he preferred to stay with his parents, taking care of them, instead of settling down with a family of his own. He had always kept good contact and relations with his friends and relatives. When he knew of us, his mother's aunt's kids, he made contact with us and kept it well, even though not all of us have been keen on replying his emails. He even called us and had an hour long conversation with us, the people he han't met more than once. I used to find it out of place for him to continuously keep in touch with us. But after reading the messages he received from relatives and friends it seems like a normal 'Robin-thing' to keep in touch; and it started to seem like something extraordinary - something you wouldn't expect too many people to do.

Life is so fragile. You can't know when it will start to fall and eventually break. Even if it is falling and is stopped midway by a stingle thread it will fall eventually; you only get to know, not even for sure, that you have a little less time than most people around you.

The name will stay.

New toy...

I can't bear to not see this furball of happiness in 24 hours, how will I bear it for 1 whole month???

E-U shenanigans

- "eid mubarak emu darling. Come over to my house for dinner"
- "Eid mubarak "***" darling. When's dinner?"
- "Come over now"
- "Too late. Already had dinner."
- "Grr. I kill you *dramatic music*"
- "Aaargh! My tragic demise! *melodramatic music*"